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Dear Apai,

Today Mama hantar Apai pergi school. Tapi bila dah sampai depan gate, Mama cakap "Bye, Apai". tapi Apai tak tengok mama pun.. apai terus turun dan terus lari masuk kelas jumpa kawan kawan.

Tiba-tiba mama rasa sedih. Kenapa anak kesayangan mama ni buat mama macam ni? Ohh.. baru Mama teringat... sebelum tu..mama ada tegur Apai sebab Apai buat perangai sikit pagi tadi. Mama rasa sebab itulah Apai marah kat mama kan? Sampai Apai tak nak bye dekat mama tadi.

Hmmm takpe lah sayang. Mama tak kisah. Yang penting Apai faham apa kesalahan yang Apai dah buat dan kenapa Mama tegur Apai. Mama nak Apai jadi orang yang baik-baik dan dah jadi tanggung jawab Mama sebagai ibu untuk tegur apa yang tak betul.

Memang Mama rasa sebak sikit pagi tadi. Tapi mama padamkan jelah sebab mama tak nak anak mama berdosa..dan inilah balasan pada mama..sebab mama ingat lagi masa mama kecik kecik dulu mama pun pernah buat kat nenek macam ni sebab masa tu mama marah kat nenek.

Ok lah sayang...Mama akan tetap berdoa agar Apai akan jadi anak yang soleh. Mama sayang Apai. Apai jgn buat macamni lagi ok?


Mama

Putaran Hidup

Kita selalu dengar orang mengungkapkan kata-kata..." Hidup ini bagaikan Roda". Memang betul..sekejap kita akan berada dibawah dan sekejap lagi kita akan berada diatas. Sebab itu jugalah kita jangan berbuat jahat atau berperasaan dengki khianat pada orang lain..kerana suatu hari nanti ia akan berbalik semula pada kita.

Beberapa hari yang lalu ...hubby menelefon emak. Berita yang kurang enak telah sampai jauh dari utara. Ayah dah tak berapa sihat. Dan jiran-jiran pun dah ramai menziarah ayah. Masa tu memang rasa terkejut sangat dengar berita itu. Rupanya dari minggu lepas lagi Ayah dah agak uzur tapi untuk tidak merisaukan anak kesayangan dia di K.L ni, dia melarang emak dari menyampaikan perkhabaran mereka disana.

Sebulan yang lalu, ketika Ayah dan emak datang ke K.L, memang ada perbezaan dari segi tingkah lakunya. Dia lebih mendiamkan diri dan tidak selincah dan segirang dulu melayan kerenah cucu-cucunya. Pemerhatian yang dibuat, aku pendamkan saja dalam hati. Malas nak bagitau pada hubby.

Sejak beberapa hari ni..aku kerap menelefon ibu mertuaku (emak) bertanyakan khabar Ayah.

Dan awal pagi semalam, Ayah jatuh didalam bilik air. Lagi sekali dia melarang emak untuk memberitahu sesiapa pun. Aku menjadi bertambah risau. Dari nada suara emak, tergambar betapa susahnya hati emak..menngenangkan keadaan Ayah. Tapi dia masih cuba untuk menyembunyikan perasaan dia kerana tidak mahu anak dan menantunya risau.

Emak ada memberitahu, buat masa ini dia sudah tidak dapat berfikir apa-apa melainkan dari memikirkan..'benda' itu mungkin sudah menghampiri mereka. Mengenangkan itu, aku rasa sedih..sedih mengenangkan jika ia benar benar berlaku, emak akan berasa sunyi., sepi dan sudah pastinya terasa kehilangan tempat untuk mengadu, bercerita dan bermanja. Anak-anak juga sudah pastunya akan merasa kehilangan yang amat sangat kerana, bila balik ke kampung, Wan lah yang menjadi tumpuan. Mereka sanggup tidak mahu ikut kemana-mana semata-mata hendak menghabiskan masa dengan Wan. Kepulangan kami kesana hujung minggu ini sudah tentu berbeza...Wan mungkin sudah tidak dapat melayan mereka seperti dulu.

Aku berdoa dan berharap...ia takkan datang lagi. Rasanya anak-anak belum puas untuk bermanja dengan Wan.

Aku terfikir..... suatu hari nanti, pastinya aku akan melalui putaran hidup seperti yang emak lalui sekarang. Seandainya dia pergi dulu, aku tak pasti samada aku akan dapat melelapkan mata bila malam menjelma, aku tidak pasti samada aku boleh bangun apabila pagi menjenguk, aku tidak pasti samada mulut boleh mengunyah makanan ketika perut lapar..tetapi yang pasti, pandanganku akan menjadi kabur dan kosong sama seperti hati yang kosong dan sepi. Kekadang terfikir juga..mungkin adalah lebih elok aku pergi dulu sebelum dia...kerana jika dia tiada...aku mungkin akan menjadi seperti bangkai hidup.

Memandangkan emak hanya ada 2 orang anak, dan hubby merupakan anak bongsu, aku telah suarakan pada hubby, seandainya ia benar benar berlaku, aku redha, dan ikhlas untuk menjaga emak....biarlah kami menghiburkan hatinya....ketika dia mengharungi hari -harinya.

Ini kerana, hidup ni bagaikan roda...nasib ku dihari tua...masih samar. Biarlah aku menunjukkan contoh yang baik kepada anak-anak agar menjadi ikutan. Sudah tentu aku mengharapkan belaian kasih sayang anak-anak di kala meniti usia senja. Dan jika aku yang pergi dulu, aku amat berharap agar anak-anak dapat menjaga dan mencurahkan kasih sayang sepenuhnya pada Papa mereka.

begitulah putaran hidup......

Goodbye Bibik.....

Good bye Eli @ bibik..

Terima Kasih kerana menjaga apai & amir seperti anakmu sendiri.

Terima Kasih diatas segala jasamu. Semoga berjaya di dalam apa jua bidang yang diceburi nanti.

Semoga kita bertemu lagi di lain waktu.......

Coffee, Gossips and Scandals.....

I can't live without coffee.. A cuppa coffee a day is enuf to make my butt move.

I was addicted to Nescafe 3in1, but have stopped eversince people kept on saying it's bad for health.

Me and gals will have coffee every morning before we start work. That's the time when we update each other on what's what, who's who and blah blah blah. And that's the best time to let out our frustration and anger. Because you know..there are so many ass-kissing bozos in the office. I guess with the existence of these bozos...come the politics and scandals.

Scandals..oh yeah so many scandals at the office now.

Scandal A

Mr Y is married , with a son. Ms Z is a mother of 3.

yes they are collegues ...but they are also intimate breakfast, lunch partners. Not only that, they park their car side by side wait for each other before going home. It started before Ms Z got pregnant until she delivered her baby...this relationship is still on till now i guess.

Scandal B

Ms A, a mommy too is also having a 'relationship' with Mr B, who had a fiance but is now listed as single. Dating time: very early in the morning at the office of course.

The similarity between these couple, easily irritated when people start to talk about them.

Hahaha...to me if you are not doing the wrong thing..there's no reason why you should feel that way.

I wonder why? Is it for fun? or Is it because they can't get the extra attention and affection from their legal-partners?..hmm maybe.

I'm not denying the fact that women especially, long for attention and affection from their husbands. But it's not an xcuse to get all the special attention, love, care from someone's husband or wife just because your own spouse is unable to do so. This is where communication plays a very important role. The wifey or the hubby should let their partners know. Not to put all the blame on him/ her but more of motivating him/her to treat you how you want it to be.

Have you ever come across a feeling when you feel you are attracted to someone but unfortunately you are married and that someone is also married. And sometimes you wish you can turn back time and perhaps meet this guy/ gal before you met your destiny? Have u ever imagine yourself being with the person you are attracted to?And imagine yourself living happily ever after with that person?

i'm not ashamed to confess that i had that feeling once. But ..i always fall back to fate, the qada' and qadar. When God created someone to be your soulmate..i believe there are reasons for it coz Allah knows whats best for you. And this is my qada' and qadar...i met him and not someone else. It is also fate that I took this path....I belong here..my heart and soul belongs to him and i can never give my heart even a tiny bit to someonelse. I do hope in the years to come, nothing is going to change that.

anyways..what goes around comes around you know...if u're sneaky...you'll never know what your husband is doing behind you back...eeek..scary dowh!!!

The Quest for true 'LOVE'???

While I was browsing the net a few days ago, I came across a blog...and read a very interesting entry which made me ask a few questions to myself...again and again.

It is about a mother, whose daughter was sickly and was warded at a hospital. During her 2 weeks stay at the hospital, she found an angel who saved her daughter's life. But ...not only she found an angel...she said she also found 'love'...

She started to fall for her daughter's paed who is 20 years older. Although her husband is always by her side, some how or rather, she had weird feelings towards the doctor. But the doctor didn't know that his patient's mom has fallen for him.. Aioyohhhh!!!!! How can this happen?

After reading the entry... i asked myself ..can u really fall for someone after you've exchange vowswith each other? For all the years spent together...and now she has some feelings for the Doctor? Doesn't she feel guilty for having that feeling?

I tried to imagine myself in her position....since lately amir has been warded for a few times... and I started to laugh....

Considering..we had four paeds....let me recall...

The first was Dr. A.J....he was a very grand fatherly figure to my son. a very warm person and is always ready to provide lengthy explaination to his curious patients@moms. But we have stoped seeing him for quite sometime since he operates only on request.

Second was the late Dato' Dr. Abraham...was my paed and then my kids...

Third is Dr.Altaf.....a very kind and soft doctor. I feel comfortable whenever i bring my kids to see him..am always satisfied with the consultation given.

Fourth and current is Dato' Dr. M. A tall, serious man but he has the most patient compared to other paeds at the hospital. His clinic is always full and yet people don't mind waiting. Got grey hair but i don't think he's old. Overall..he's ok.

So..over and above.... have not fallen for any of these men..hahhaha and never will.

To me...my quest for true love has ended the day he promised my dad..he will be a husband who will protect me from all evils, be my shelter and shower me with love each and every moment of my life..until the day when death do us part.

He has been a great husband and a very patient man..specially when wifey is cranky.

You r still da one i love...=)

A new year...a new me..=)

How fast time flies. I remembered, just after i delivered Apai way back in 2003..I would imagine how i will be when Apai starts school. I figured when Apai starts his primary school....I'll still be a young mommy. (not so young la....).

And now..I'm comparing my own pics for any obvious signs of aging. *Sigh*...Ada...of course ada...

1. I'm starting to have eye bags;

2.Dark under eye circles

3.Mini wrinkles starting to show...I mean...MINI

4. Of course..have gotten flabb-ier

BUT..above all this...This year..I am very proud of myself for....the first time in my entire 28 going 29 years of life...I changed my hairstyle.

hahahah..yes..its a reality. For all the years after i got married...i have never let my hair down..it's always tied. I'm very satisfied with my new hairdo...a newly rebonded hair..hahhaha

And for the first time too i have the confidence to un-tie my hair.

And just recently..i had another hair-cut...a Bob cut...and hubby calls it Rihanna hair.Woohoo.

Oklah enough about the hairdo. Another resolution i have for this year is..whenever i write...I will make sure that whatever is written must be purely in either Bahasa Melayu or English. Not a rojak bahasa like wat i'm using now. SO for my next entry....i hope to see some changes....

My Justification for the abovementioned statement: (in bahasa) Kita mesti memartabatkan Bahasa Melayu sebagai bahasa ibunda. Kalau Orang Melayu tidak menjaga bahasa kita sendiri..siap lagi?

I must admit...my languages are not excellent...but I will try..to further improve by doing this practice. ( Kalau boleh laaa...)

tata for now...