Dugaaan........

Every year we will go for a family vacation.Usually its just 'in-sea' not oversea. So this year Ayah planned to go to Kuantan.A few days before Aidil Adha we arrived at Hyyat Regency Teluk Cempedak. The kids were so excited to go to the beach and swim at the pool. The weather was beautiful ....but only the first 2 days of our arrival. The rest was extremely wet.The kids had no choice but to swim in the bath tub..hehhe.

I would rate this vacation as a vacation yang tak berapa memuaskan. Because..in the first place...Apai had a fever..then it went down to Adik.

On the last day...which is Raya eve..we drove down to Atuk's house to celebrate raya. Jarang wooo dapat raya haji kat rumah atuk eversince i got married because we will always go back to Perlis.

When we arrived at atuks house, it was already 6.30pm. And of course a very gloomy day because of the weather. Tak sampai 15 mins kat rumah atuk...my sis, and my bro in law drove the three of us back to KL. WHy? because their were blood in amir's vomit. I didn't really panick (although i was..a little bit) but i didn't wanna show coz ..I am a single super mom at that point of time. Mama freaked out and instructed us to go back instantly and bring Amir to DSH.

When we arrived at DSH, it was already 8.30pm. Did a blood test..and..yup...warded.

So this is the first time i celebrated Raya at a hospital and without a hubby.=( . I hope i don't have to go thru this again for the rest of my life.

We spent 4 nites at the hospital. And my leave was streched from 2 days of annual leave to 4 days of emergency leave. I had a llllooooong break!!. And of course...i had panda eyes...tooo.=(

A few days after we were discharged, on a fine tuesday evening. i left early from mama's house. And when we reached home, my autogate didn't fucntion. Rupanya...my house is the onlyhouse without electricity. I went to my neighbour's house..luckily her hubby was on leave. They checked out the problem. And i called TNB..to my surprise i was caller no. 50 ...in line. I had to wait. And when i spoke to the customer service people, they say they can only come in two hours time, And at that time it was already 6.30 pm!!!!.

In the end, my neighbour bought a new fius...and then ..the electricity is back again..alhamdullilah. I can't imagine if on that day....i arrive home at the usual time. Aiyoohh....dugaan lagi.

Sometimes i gave up ..and ask why does it happen to me. But on the other hand...i take it on the positive aspect..there must be some hikmah despite all the kejadian yang berlaku. And of course all this has made me a stronger supermom!!! hahha.

Science Lesson No. 1

Last night, as I was driving home from Mama's, it was drizzling. And as usual, Apai will talk about his :

1) Uncle Bus dah lama tak datang so auntie bus yang hantar balik
2) Teacher X...yang asyik kata jawapan matematik dia salah..so he said teacher tu yang tak tau
matematik
3)girlfriend dia..Zahira duduk sebelah dia dalam bus sebab girfriend sorang lagi nama Railey absem (absent)

After a while, I asked him.."Apai lapar tak? Nak makan?"

"eemm nak...", he replied

"nak makan apa sayang?"

"mama..nape bila kita lapar...otak kita suruh kita makan?"

Here's Science lession No.1

"Sebab..bila perut kita lapar...dia bagitau kat otak kita...then otak kita bagitau kita suruh makan lah"..I said.

" oh.. ok..Mama..otak saya kata kena makan maggie" he said selamba.

TOINGGGGG!!!! there goes the science lesson...he knew i won't let him eat maggie.

" Tak boleh la maggie...apai kena makan chicken, sayur and blah blahblah", i replied

"Habis tu kenapa dulu -dulu..otak mama ngan papa suruh makan maggie je?"he asked again .

Lagi sekali tak tau nak jawab apa sebab dulu memang pun time malas nak masak and nak cepat..memang both of us makan maggie.

This time i just kept quiet and tukar topic...

hehehe there goes my science lesson no.1....

ciao for now.

Finally...

Finally.....rumahku dah siap di betulkan. Alhamdullilah. After a week of living in a kapal karam...yesterday...the three of us slept in our room. But more needs to be done. The kain baju especially. Nasib baik half of it was sent to the laundry.

Cuma, last nite and early this morning...i heard some not so good sound of water flowing in the tank and sometimes dapat dengar lagi bunyi pipe vibrate. I called Mr Yeap the contractor a few hours ago. He promised to send someone to look at it petang nanti. Looks like i have to again leave office probably an hour early. I hope this time its gonna be good for good.

Over the weekend, all of us except hubby went to Apai's first concert. It was fun!!. I was relieved to see Apai enjoying his dance called "Let's Celebrate". And after that Atuk took us for lunch at BK Hartamas. I guess Apai n frens can relax now after months of hardwork practising the steps.

Tapi...Smart reader is not closed for holidays yet. School is as usual until Dec 12. Haiya..kesian bebudak ni.

Well..today..I have a lot to catch up at work. And still waiting for hubby to call and update on his whereabouts as he was asked to assist the Haj operation in Jeddah pulak since flights to Madinah dah berakhir on Nov 15.

To hubby..take good care..we miss u....!

Bye for now..

I didn't ask for it.....

Kita selalu dengar orang kata...."kalau ada musibah yang melanda...kita mesti sabar dan redha menghadapi segala kejadian samada baik atau buruk...sebab....itu adalah dugaan Allah...dan apabila kita diduga...tandanya Allah sayangkan kita dan ingatkan kita..dan mungkin beri kita peringatan akan kelalaian kita selama ni."

Yes..I truly believe that. Beberapa hari yang lalu....ada musibah yang berlaku. and i feel its a dugaan yang besar (setakat ni) especially when hubby is not around. Walaumacamanapun, syukur sebab dugaan ni taklah seberat mana compared to rang lain yang macam-macam lagi ditimpa kesusahan.

It started on that Friday morning..while i was about to clean my face...with facial foam all over ...tetibe tak da air....DAMMM!!! time nak mandi time tulah air takde. It happened before. The main pipe kadang kadang vibrate so whenever it vibrates, bibik akan slowkan the main tap...lama-lama...pressure pun tak de and air pun tak naik.

I went down and took a quick bath with available water left.

later in the afternoon, I decided to go home early because i need to call the Indonesian worker to fix the problem.

When we reached home...apai was screaming.."Mama..rumah kita banjir...mama lupa nak tutp paip ke?" I was still clueless and blurr. I went in and was shocked to see water flowing from the stairs... everywhere is wet and flooded. Ran upstairs and was even shocked to see water dripping from the ceiling of the 3 bedrooms and worst still, the room that we turned into our closet (sebab tak buat wardobe lagi) the ceiling runtuh...yes runtuh...so u can imagine the condition of my house....my bed was totally wet and to sum up in just 4 words....everthinng's damaged and wet.

I was devastated. With hubby not around...i just dunno what to do.

When i spoke to hubby i broke down...I so want him to come home immediately ..but i know that is very impossible.

When I was more calmed, I called the contractor...and they did the fixing part...but till today its still not completed. I took leave for tommorow and the day after to clean up the mess after they repaired everything.

Oh well....I guess.. ni baru sikit je dugaanNYA. There must be a blessing in disguise despite all this. This incident has made me stronger in getting thru the challenges in life. I also realised that it is very hard to overcome situations like this when your husband is not around....because every decision you make..every step you take...its all on you. So ..thumbs up to all the single mums outhere.!! I salute you for your courage and strengths.

Ciao for now....

Just Another Ordinary Day

Today is just another ordinary day. hari ni pun taklah sebz mana because...no one is at office....
Mood nak buat kerja pun takda plus no outstandings left..soooo lega and sooooooooo boring la pulak sume kerja dah siap.

Yesterday wasn't ordinary......

It didn't start well that morning. Apai buat perangai lagi. Mula mula nangis tak nak mandi lepas mandi nangis lagi tak nak pergi school because tak suka teacher X sebab teacher X slalu marah sebab dia tak tau buat Maths...

I was in a hurry yesterday because i din't wanna be stuck in the jam and be late for my session.
I get more stressed when he can't stop crying and...with the existence of the butterflies in my stomach....it made things worst.

Apai was cyring hysterically in the car..and it was also raining very heavily..eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee geramnyer akakkkkk!!!. I decided not to send him to school because i Did Not want to create any scene at the drop off area of his school.

I left aand reached just in time before the event started.

It felt weird coz...a few years back..i was there as an employeee and yesterday i was there as a speaker.

Overall..I enjoyed..eventhough i couldn't really sleep the nite before thinking if its gonna be a smooth one for me.

I rewarded myself with a Subway sandwich...uummm yummy..!

While I was enjoying my sandwich, my phone rang..

"Mama..apai mintak maaf...tommorow i go to school",

" Hmmm ok....." I said.

" mama ..belikan Sugus kay..for aqid, me and adik"

ahhhaahhh.. I knew it....mintak maaf sebab ada udang sebalik mee rupenyer...am not sure if its a sincere maaf from my dearest son...=)

To hubby..miss u much.....

Ciao for today....

I'm sorry........

Yesterday I attended a Seminar at PJ Hilton. I left the hotel at about 3.30pm. I decided not to lepak lama2 at mama's house because I need to practice for my presentation at my old office tommorow( Am already having butterflies in the stomach).

We reached home at about 5 pm. Helped Apai with his Mandarin homework..or he prefers to call and spell as chinis. But of course ada je alasan tak nak habis kan the last page....some of his common reasons:

1. Teacher kata buat satu page jer mama..(yelah tu..)
2. Penatla mama..Apai tak Larat ni...and
3. Mama ..I want to do at nenek house tommorow morning.

To make things uncomplicated..I just follow like buffalo..sebab malas nak naik hangin...janji kerja siap. I believe..if he doesn't have the interest to do it at that point of time...the quality of work pun will be unsatisfactory.oklah sayang..nak buat kat rumah nenek pun buatlah..mama tak kisah.

After that, i decided to drink my cuppa coffee at our mini garden. Hujan pun renyai renyai..masa ni lah tersanggap sekejap kat hubby....tgh sanggap sanggap tetiba..my not so little sunshine yang malas nak buat homework tadi pun keluar. He started to pok pek pok pek..mama.this mama that... and i just answered mmhmmm..yea..ya..yes..ooh..oh yeke...oh ok...
(What a bad mommy!!!) Yelah..tgh melayan perasan..so agak malas nak melayan dia cakap.

He made a statement " Mama..u miss ur husband ye?"

Finally I said, " Lepas ni mandi ok?"

"Ok..Mama kita mandi berdua k, papa tak de so we can kissing kissng?" he said

I made a face..

"EEEEE tak nak lah..."

"Mama..why boys..cannot kiss gurls?"

" Because...they are not married yet" I said selamba.

" Ok then i want to marry zahira..( his classmate yang jugak comel...=)"

I asked" She likes u aaa?"

" Oh..tak nak lah... I want to marry Hani"

"Why?"

"Because Hani is my gangstarz"

HHHuhh? Dia ni tau ke apa dia cakap ni?

" Gangstarz?? What song do u sing?"
" Oh.. We sing...I love u u love me..we are happy family..lalallalalla( Barney song)

LOL!!! ntah pape ntah anak aku ni.

Later that nite... i was doing my toning exercise in the bathroom. Of course i had 2 little audience watching me. Then one of the audience came and wanted to take my wrist weight away.

"NNNNOPE..go back to the bed" I said sternly.

So ..this audience pun merajuk and baring on his papa's portion of the bed.

When I'm done...as i was wiping the sweats of my body...I told him..

"Apai..go and wee wee before u sleep k..tadi dah minum banyak air"

I think i said that very nicely for umpteenth time. But no response..
Aduhh..sungguh the terkurang the ajar!!!

I guess the temperature has reached to its maximum.. i raised my voice... and tak dengar jugak...and suddenly.....automatically for the first time in my life....i..took the towel and pukul his kaki...(tak skait pun..but later i think it got a little bit harder when he still make dunno.

Knowing my son.. he's very egoistic...tak nangis tak apa..expressionless.

When I cooled down...we had a talk...a looong talk... on why i did that and why he shouldn't do that again... we both started to cry.... He said sorry to me... and i hugged him and i apologised to him for doing that.,

Mama mintak maaf sayang...I din't mean to hurt you but i was stressed.

I'm sorrry...dear.... I love you....always and forever.

When everything got back to normal....we watched Penelope...but halfway thru..they dozed off. And I continued with watching Samantha Who...

HMMMmmm it is not easy to be a parent...I always pray that i will be a good mother to my kids..because the kids are a reflection of us.....

Ok chow for now.... Wish me luck for my presentation tommorow!!.

It Has Been A Week

It has been a week since Hubby left us. So far so good. I can firmly say my emotions are stable now. i repeat ..STABLE. Dah tak mudah nak nangis bila dgr lagu-lagu jiwang jiwang ni.
Thank you Sam ...for the comforting words.. I appreciate that.

Life is back to normal. Everyday..drive to Mama's drop the kids and off to work. After work to Mama's lepak2 makan2 ..drive home and sleep. That's my routine everyday.

During the absence of hubby, I will be undergoing MRO. That is if everything goes well as planned. Oh ya...before i forget, I saw on Carrefour's catalogue..the elliptical bike is going for RM 299. I don't know if its worth it to buy or not. I probably need that as part of my MRO process. But I'm also thinking if I should just get a stepper...selling for only 120..on ebay. According to a friend of mine, she cycles on the bike everyday for at least 20 mins 7 days a week and she could see a more decent shape of the thighs and buns.

But I'm just afraid that if I buy....it will be just a display item. Like ..hubby bought this Ab-Bench yang konon-kononnyer if u do everyday..within 14 days...u will get fabulous abs......... We did it for the first 3 days..tapi lepas tu..hmmm hampeh.....

So for this MRO procedure, I've purchased a bottle of health supplement drink. I hope it works.

Today is Friday..Yippeee!!! Can't wait to go back....
I already know what i wanna do tommorow. First half of the day..I''ll turn into a potato couch and watch the marathon Korean Drama on KBS World...and perhaps..later bring the kids somewhere.....
Sighh...wish u were here Hubby...

Bye for now...

P/s: MRO is maintainance, repair and overhaul..hehehee

A sweet email....

The first thing that i usually do when i reach office every morning is to check my emails. Luckily Boss is out of office since yesterday afternoon..so there shoudn't be any urgent mails or new tasks assigned. As i scrolled down... I saw an email from my long time no see hubby.

It was a simple and sweet email with a link to his favourite arabic music video. And it comes with the translation. Its such a sweet song...as i read the lyrics....*sniff* sedih la pulak.
And I guess the lyric is a direct translation from arabic. So pepaham jelah bila direct translation kan. But if u watch the video and compare the lyrics...u will understand what the song is all about.Here's the lyric and the music video.....Thank you sayang..so sweet of you..=).

When I was in your hands
I melted in my place
And I forgot my lifetime with you
And the time that passed with me was seconds
Draw me close
And let me live my feelings with you

I defy the whole world when I'm with you
And I say to the world itself that I love you
That you are my darling and my heart
And my soul is with you
Draw me close
And let me live my feelings with you

My adoration for you is an adoration of the moon from a star
And sleepless nights
And my desire for you is beyond the imagination
And beyond the possibilities of man
From the day I met you live has been sweet

With you I am challenging all that is present
Either I'll be with you or I won't be
I will not live without your love
My heart adores you madly

27/10/2008

Today is Mon and a public holiday. Didn’t have any plans today coz sista have got to go to office for some discussion. Ceh…I shud report this to the ministry of HR.
Oh well..the kids are bored rite now…and terpaksalah tgk DVD-meet dave while waiting to go to the park.

And me..i do not know what to do after this. Probably counting hours and minutes to go to work tomorrow..after a long break. Sigh…….AND …URRGHHH of course like there will be tones of tasks waiting to be executed…cehhh!!! I wish I’m a freelancer…

Chow for now………..


We went for dinner at Mak Jah Warung Kopi in Bukit Jelutong. The food is good!!
The Nasi Goreng Kampung is ssoooo delicious. No wonder memang ramai yang makan at Mak Jah.

When we arrived at Mak Jah, I wondered why we were directed to seat outside. Rupanyer ada shooting scheduled there. When I turned back, I saw Nanu, Rushdi Ramli and a few others.I don’t know for what filem/ drama. But one thing I’m sure is it’s a Shuhaimie Baba’s Production…..

Oh well…biarlah..janji my tummy kenyang…..=)

Good nite hubby..love you.

26/10/2008

We went to the zoo today. Ayang and Ira joined us. The last time I went to the zoo was I think 20 years ago..itupun school trip hehehe. I guess hubby and me are not so rajin like my sis and bro-in law. Ever since my nephew was 1, they brought him to the zoo every year without fail. Kalo dulu..the hippo was stil single , now dah beranak pinak..hehheheh.

Since it was a Sunday and on a long weekend, ramainya orang berkunjung ke Zoo. The entry fee pun dah increase(dari dulu la…according to my sis yang merupakan pengunjung setia zoo setiap tahun)…adults RM15 and kids RM6.

We began our little journey inside the zoo by visiting the elephants and the giraffes. Amir was sooo excited …..But then, second half of the journey, he was errr expressionless. Don’t know why but probably because of the hot weather and mengantuk kot.
The petting zoo for kids was closed for upgrading.

At about 1230 we were done. Drove to Pak Li Kopitiam in Sek 7 Shah Alam.
What’s good here…hmm I like the Nasi Ayam Lemon.Yummy!!! the kids loved it. We ordered 2 sets of fish and chips for them but in the end, they ate the nasi ayam lemon. The rice tasted like the usual nasi ayam but the chicken is crispy fried chicken with lemon sauce..i think.

Bila perut pun dah kenyang…memang rasa nak tido. We went back to my house and zzz…zzzz….zzz sampai petang. Bila everyone dah bangun…. Biasalah minum petang with kuih raya. Ayang and Ira left when it was almost magrib.
And suddenly…the feeling of misery …loneliness…and blah blah blah..attacked me again. Well.. I was not alone…my sis felt the same..coz both of us sanggap at our hubby.

Over and above….there were 3 people in the house yang very happy… my sons and Aqid. They were so happy…as though they were on vacation…heheh.

Hubby called later that night…tq sayang for calling again….I know u missed us too!!!

Good nite!!

Diary of a Temporary Single (but Not available) Supermom

25/10/2008

Today, we went to mom’s.had breakfast and then everyone went off to open house la, org kawin la… Me? Well.. I decided to pick up a parcel for hubby at the Post laju Centre at Brickfields. It contained a Pashmina, and 2 jubah. It was from hubby’s friend in Terengganu.

Then we went to Tesco Damansara…..KFC for lunch.

Pastu jejalan je kat Tesco tu ..bought some food stuff coz tonite my sistas will be sleeping over. Tomorrow we plan to bring the kids to the ZOO.

I wanted to bring Apai to the zoo looong time ago. Masa tu, ingat nak tunggu dia besar sket..bila dia dah besar…mama preganant pulak..so tak larat nak gi zoo. So I guess this is the rite time lah nak gi zoo. Takut kalo delay lagi…kang mama pregnant lagi pulak..hheheheh alamat sampai besar la hangpa tak pi zoo nooo.

Rite now…yang ada kat rumah is me, Amir and bibik. Apai went to Aqid’s house..and will be coming home later.

Hmmm in the car just now..bibik told me that she don’t want to sambung contract….
Nak balik kawin and jaga mak dia sakit. Adeehhhhhh…apo nak buek…….lepas ni kena train lain la nampaknye..duit pun terbang lagilah jawabnya….

Sedih jugak rasa…sebab tak tau la pulak lepas ni dapat bibik yang macamana.
I just hope we’ll get someone yang reliable jugak macam sekarang ni.
Although dulu banyak jugak la incident yag menyakitkan hati..tapi..she did well in taking care of my kids..itu pun yang penting skali.

Hmmmph……..=(.

Miss you sayang…take care.

Diary of a Temporary Single (but Not available) Supermom

24/10/2008

Last night, the three of us slept with hubby’s unwashed kain pelekat and his white pagoda shirt. Just to get ourselves to sleep and pretending that he’s around. We slept early….not in the mood to watch any shows on tv. I guess I dozed off at around 945pm after cleaning up some space in my handphone’s Inbox and reading all messages from hubby before he left.

It wasn’t a smooth sleep. I woke up at 1030…for nothing.

130 am ..received a text message from him

Read : I’ve arrived and currently queuing at the immigration. Gud nite and luv u all.

Alhamdullilah….he has arrived safely. I know their next journey is heading towards Mekah to perform Umrah. I went back to sleep…but woke up every now and then…..finally at 6.00 I woke up to perform Subuh prayer. And here I am writing till now.

Just for the record.. I’m taking medical leave today…..nope…not sick…but just unstable emotions. (is there such term?)

I guess…to calm my ‘chaotic’ hormones… I need to go on a shopping therapy alone.

Yeah..there’s a METROJAYA warehouse sale today. =)

Love u sayang..will be waiting for ur next sms……


130 pm…I received another text message from hubby dearest. He informed that they have completed Umrah after subuh Mekah time. And will depart to Madinah after Friday prayers. And he reminded me to inform Mak (Mom-In-Law) of his latest update.

Will do honey..tried calling her just now…but no one picked up. Will try again after this.

8.45 pm- everybody was already in bed. Amir’s battery ‘konged’ quite early tonite. Perhaps he was so tired due to his ‘busy’ schedule. In addition, he took his nap for just 15 mins so that explains why. Apai…as usual… didn’t stop asking me this and that…sometimes I felt bad sebab kekadang malas nak layan dia pok pek pok pek. But I know its not good if I tak layan dia cakap. I was surprised when he suddenly said..

“ Apai nak mintak maaf kat papa”

“Haaa?? Why?”
“Sebab Apai noti kat Papa”.

“ Oh..ok…takpelah nanti bila papa call Apai cakap kat Papa k?”

I continued to clean the bathroom. He came to me again….and whispered at my ears

“ Apai mintak maaf”

In my heart….leeehhh apahal plak budak ni asyik nak mintak maaf je ni.

“ Ok sayang…mama pun nak mintak maaf kat Apai…if mama ada marah2( memang banyak pun..heheheh) apai k. Just for your info… mama marah bukan sebab mama tak sayang… tapi sebab …mama SAYANG sangat kat Apai… tau…”

“OK..”

While I was getting ready to sleep …after taking flu medication…( baru 9.15pm…haiihh….memang tak terusik la Astro sepanjang hubby tak de ni..)…Apai said,

“Mama…rindu sangat-sangat la kat papa…...apai rasa tak boleh tunggu la lama2 4 papa to come home….”

“Apai sabar la..nanti tak lama lagi Papa balik laaa”


“Mama ..jom tgk gambar papa..”

After looking again-and again and his papa’s pics….I told him to sleep.

And seconds later…. I fell into a very deep sleep…(sebab ubat)

But as I was enjoying my sleep…tetibe the phone rang…..It was Kakak…(my eldest sister who is also holding the same status as I am…”temporary single super-mom” sebab hubby went to Bali ..but notfor long..in a few days time..he’ll be back. And while he’s away…she and my neph checked in at mom’s)

“ Siata….vat are u doing?”

“errrm sleeping..” , I answerd..dengan penuh mamainye.

“ Oh..guess what… Ira (my youngest sis who is 17) got kutu..hehehhe”

“Huhhh? Oh really…ok…”, I said with my eyes closed..mengantuk sgt.

“Oklah..are u coming 2morrow? Cause I got work and my son’s gonna be lonely if Apai takde”

“ok..I’ll come in the morning..”

“Ok”
“bye..”, and I hung up.

Then around 11ish …got sms from hubby..yeayy!!!

Tapi masih dalam keadaan mengantuk…I tried so hard to read the text with eyes half open..

He said.. he’s on the way to Madinah..and it’s gonna be a long journey…he’ll update upon arrival at Madinah.

Luv u hubby……take care.

Oh ya.. I forgot to mention that for my retail therapy, I spent almost 300 bucks…on what…? I pun tak sure..hehehe it felt like I was hypnotized during the therapy. Oh well..just a few items for myself and the rest for the house…..

P/s: Hubby.if u’r reading this…don’t worry…I did not over spend and I paid my credit card bills already….=).

Diary of a Temporary Single (but Not available) Supermom

23/10/2008

The day has finally arrived. The day my life became empty.
For one second today, it felt like there was no air to breathe when he let my hand go and slowly disappear from my vision…..

I suddenly woke up in the midst of a deep sleep. …It was only 4 am.
My angels were sleeping soundly. I turned to the other side and felt so relieved to see my other half sleeping peacefully. Yes..the miserable feeling has attacked me again in the early hours of Thursday morning. My cheeks felt hot…and soon…drops of tears rolled down…again..for..i don’t know kali ke berapa. Didn’t want to disturb his sleep, I sat at the end of the bed and just watched him sleep….still with tears running.

It felt strange to have this kind of feeling especially when this is not the first time he left for Haj. And usually, people say when u have kids with you…takdelah sedih sgt. Nope..its the other way round for me.

I moved closer to him …and starred at him blankly. Squeezed myself and made my way around his arms so that I can fall asleep again.

9.30 am we reached Kompleks Haji Kelana Jaya. Dropped him off and went straight to Mama’s and waited for his call. Then around 11 am, he called and it was time to leave for KLIA.

At about 12..we reached KLIA,after check- in, we headed towards Mc Donalds….for our last family lunch. The kids were excited and were running around. Sigh…maybe diorang tak faham lagi what’s going to happen later.

At this point of time, I managed my emotions quite well. Didn’t wanna make it so obvious in front of the kids and him. Then, Mama and Ira joined us. Time flies so fast today. …sigh..I wish I have the power to stop the clock from ticking…

2.50 pm…it was time for him to go…as we walked towards the escalator….i tried so hard not to burst into tears but I failed when he hugged and kissed the kids again and again…. And when it was my turn to salam….I broke down. We hugged each other….” Jgn la sedih….love you…drive carefully k..” I know he was sad too…but men..biasalahkan…tak macam kita ..yang tak boleh control langsung. Slowly…he let go of me …and walked away until there was no sight of him.

My vision was blurred. I walked towards the parking area. But all the way…I just don’t know what I was looking at….everything seems blur…I just followed the signage that says “P”.

Got into the car and drove slowly….while driving… I managed to text him…

“LUV U”
He replied “TAKE CARE…LUV U TOO…ALREADY IN THE AIRCRAFT…=(“


I drove on….and biasalah the journey from KLIA to our home…rasanya…
Adalah dalam 3 baldi air mata yang berjaya ditakung.

We reached home….and as I walked up the stairs heading towards our room….i cried again..sebab rasa macam tak sanggup nak masuk bilik because the thought of …his portion of our bed will be empty for the next 3 mths…

As usual ( I did this everytime he left for Haj) the first thing that I did was to smell his pillow coz…by doing that…I can smell him….

I hope this feeling of misery won’t be for long.

I love u sayang..till we meet again….

Mission Accomplished!!!!

Cuti hari raya dis year,....hubby took just a few days off..while i took almost a week off. So masa cuti n masa hubby off to work....I was bored!!! Boring gile....dok makan..tgk tv..mkan kuih raya...tido..masak...then lepak lepak.

On that fateful Friday....just about 3 hours before hubby balik....I decided to do a little makeover to my bathroom. You see...when we moved in ...we didn't have enough $$$$$ to pasang shower screeen. So we used our shower curtain rod masa rumah kat Kota Damansara and letaklah kat dalam toilet tu. But the problem was... the rod was too long....so we had to hang it frm wall to wall...outside the shower area. I soooo don't like the sight of it....

O.k sambung cerita...so on that Friday evening...i thought of this brilliant idea....kenapa tak potong je rod according to the measurement of the bathing area.Yep..!! I shall do it....myself..no need to wait for hubby. Went to the storeroom and took hubby's tool box. Found the mini-saw for besi. Apa lagi...Opps mengergaji shower curtain rod pun bermula....

Potong punya potong.... tak perasan pulak dalam the extended rod tu ada spring...the spring la yang mengfirmkan curtain rod tu hang on the wall. I decided to throw the spring away and just use the original rod. Measurement correct....and now...nak hang balik kat the designated tempat. Before that..time check...lagi one hour to hubby coming back...ok..sempat lagi ni!!!!

This is the most challenging part for me....when i placed it on the wall...it won't stay!!!!It dropped...so how can it support the shower curtains? Damm!!! I'm racing with time..and now...this thing won't stick on the wall!! What am i going to say to hubby when he gets home?

After putting so much effort on it.. and my baju pun dah basah gila because of peluh keringat...I gave up. It won't work. I cleaned up the mess....rolled up the bathroom carpets....and brought the 'injured' rod down ...to the backyard of course!!!(kenala suruk kat belakang-belakang sikit). I shall leave no evidence.....!!!!

I cleaned the bathroom....and dumped the shower curtain in the washing machine. Told Bibik to run the machine the next morning. Aren't I smart??? ....yealah..mesti dia ingat shower curtain takde sebab basuh ...sebab toilet pun baru lepas cuci....hehehee....

When he came back....me make dunno..like nothing happened..

For a week...we had no shower curtain. He didn't ask..but from his body language..I know he knows something is not rite. Tapi i terpaksa berlakon as though nothing happen ...biasala maintain macam diva. Last friday...I bought a new rod....and malam tu jugak hubby pasangkan.Fuuhh lega...... finally mission accomplished!!!!

P/s: till now it's still a secret...sorry hubby, didn't mean to keep it from you...but i had tooo. =)

Mama Jangan Cry Ok?

Another 12 more days to hubby leaving for Madinah. Since yesterday i've been so emo. Bertambahlah emo-nyer when i watched the filem Ayat-ayat Cinta. I'm not a fan of Indonesian filems but this one really touched my heart. I think I'm gonna get the DVD so that i can watch it over and over again.


It was last nite that i cried when the thought of hubby going really soon. The last 2 haj season wasn't that bad because he went only for 2 weeks. But this time..it's the second time that he's leaving for almost 3 months. The first time he left was the year we got married. And to be exact..I was 6months pregnant. I couldn't explain how miserable it was without looking at his face every day ..and had some sleepless nites for 3 months. Those nites when i had cramps....and nites when i coughed so badly that i couldn't sleep at all. Those were the times when i needed him the most. To rub my back..and my legs when i had cramps. I wish i don't have to go through it again.


Just after solat Magrib just now...i tried to imagine my nights and weekends without him....Oh no...what am I gonna do?


Seconds later Apai came in. He looked at me...and then he started to imagine himself in the world of Upin & Ipin.





I held his hand. I told him that I'm really sad because papa is leaving.....then i started crying.



" Mama, nape mama cry?"



" Mama sedih sgt..nantikan papa nak pergi...Apai tak sedih ke?"



"Tak lah...mana boleh..boy mesti keras-keras... tak boleh cry"



"hmm ok ...good boy".



I told him how sad I was when his papa went for the first time and during that time he was still in my tummy.



I cried again....



" Mama...jgn cry ok....bila papa pergi nanti...malam-malam nak tido..mama pegang tangan apai kuat-kuat...Apai kan ada."



"ok..."



Thank you sayang..i know i can always count on you ..although lately I'm stressed due to your unpredictable attitude.



Even right now..when I'm typing this, he's right beside me...talking non- stop about Upin& Ipin, about his friend Akmal, questioning me why we didn't go to Aunty Pooh's house to see her baby..because he wants duit raya...



Thank you for being my little sunshine.....=)

Yesterday was the first time that i stepped my feet on the grounds of Institut Jantung Negara. I have a family history of heart problem. My arwah nenek (dad's) passed away 2 years ago due to heart failure.It is true that people say that heart attack is a silent killer. We only got to know that nenek had this heart problem just a few months before she left us. And yesterday, my dad had another round of angiogram. The first he had was last year. Lcukily it was not so serious as he is no required to stay overnight at IJN. So...dat worries me because genetically, I may have the same problem sooner or later. Dat scares me....specially when my diet is sssooo not healthy, and I hate exercising. Yikes...!!!



After spending half of the day at IJN, I went to Ampang Park to search for the sarong of my blue cotton linen baju kurung. I was dissapointed when my tailor failed to source for the material of the baju. Dad bought it during one of his trips to Jakarta.But the material is onlu enuf for the baju.Went to all the boutiques there. It was so hard finding the right color and the material.

But it didn't take long.... i finally found one that i liked....and best of all, its kinda cheap and comes together with the baju. So I have 2 baju and a kain that i can wear.And that makes my day!!.



Dah penat berjalan...i spent some quite little time...all by myself at the Old Town Kopitiam.Phewww...it felt so goood when you found the things that you were looking for so badly and felt good too when you get to sip hot coffee and satisfies the tummy with a plate of dry curry mee...yummy!!!



haaaahh..how nice...i wish i don't have to go back to work....too bad i have 2 more days left before going back to the h*ll H*le. Wish me luck!!

From Ramadhan to Syawal

This year's Ramadhan was a little different from the previous. Naaaahhh...i did not turn into Nigella Lawson....I didn't really cook that much although we didn't buy food at Pasar Ramadhan. This year ...Mon-Fri, all of us buka at mama's. Only weekends that i cook for buka puasa. Itu pun bukan nya special sangat ...just the usual, buah gula melaka...then i made Kebab, Kueh teow soup, soo-hoon goreng, pita stuffed with chicken mayo....ahhaaa this year i tried to make nasi kerabu ...from scratch. Bisalah hubby liked it but tak taulah if dia nak ambil hati je. To me everything turned out well...cuma the sambal is a little bit termasam.



I also tried to loose some weight in this holy month. Well.. i did loose a few Kgs....but i gained it back during syawal. So i can conclude that i did not loose any weight. How sad.....

This year's preparation for Syawal pun tak lah macam dulu. Very simple and i did it verrry slowly. I bought the kids baju raya about a week before raya.(Tunggu ISETAN sale) Then the baju Melayu, songkok and samping...4 days before raya. Mannnnn...we went hunting for the baju Melayu like crazy. On saturday we went to PKNS, Alam Sentral, SACC , finally The curve. at SACC MAll, found the right colour with the right material from OMAR ALI....but it was the last piece and worst still its not a baju melayu but a baju kurung for a five year old kid!!. On Sunday we went to Ampang Point, Ampang Park and finally..last resort...the place that i was trying to avoid.. Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman. We buka puasa in the car, in the parking area of Pertaman Complex. Had some chicken nuggets and a slice of wedges and off we go for the baju melayu hunt. I was so deperate and exhausted at that ponint of time. I told my other half.....i just don't care anymore if the color matches his baju.... i'm just tired....

Betul la kata orang..kalao dah jodoh takkan kemana. We found the colour that is quite similar to the one my other half will be wearing. Without thinking further..we took it. Haaaahhh lega....



Since this year, we celebrate Raya in Perlis, we had a family photo shoot 2 days before raya. Everyone berposing sakan and it really felt like it was already raya..hehehe. Thanks to my make-up artist. I thoht she did my eyes quite well.. I liked it...but to my surprise.. my darling nephew commented "ewww you looked like a ghost" hahahahahaa...



So thats it.... i have to go... i'll probably continue when time permits.

Mama...what is SEXY???

On a hot Sunday afternoon, I was driving back home after dropping hubby at KL Sentral. The usual routine, we (me and apai) will hum or sing our heart out to any songs aired. While singing like a star, Apai asked " Mama..what is sexy?"

Hmmm..how do i answer that?

" Sexy..? hmm sexy is eeer you know...it can mean..beautiful...and..urmmm"

"Ma..is sexy...b*gel-b*gel?" he asked again...not satisfied with my answer..I guess.

"NNNNOO.....its not datt...", i said ...adeh mana dia dapat nih?

" you know sexy can also mean that u are beautiful in certain aspects..like your eyes are sexy and etc...."

"oooohhhhh"

hmmmph... I usually read and hear on kids asking their parents questions like this...but its slowly coming to me now.....I have to get my self prepared for more questions from my 5 year old kiddo!

I finally have the time

Pheww.. finally got the time to scribble some stuffs here.

It has been a while since i last wrote in. So many things happened during the period of my absence. I've settled down ..our own private property..=).Alhamdullilah things went smoothly and the money runs VERY smoothly too!!..The grills, lighting, curtains, kitchen cabinets, kitchen extension and bla bla bla. but we survived..hehehehe.

Thumbs up to hubby for his unwavering effort in making the garden presentable...but still more needs to be done. Over and above, our home needs serious interior decorating as ..let me see..the wall is still bare..I need more flowers to give a little aura. Ya..ya..ya...my budget needs an aura tooo.

Well..i turned down an offer to run away from this h**ll h*l*. But after taking into serious consideration, I decided to pledge my loyalty to my employer. But I seriously hope its not for long...ehhe.

Work....urrrghh..its like the hurricane...comes and go. When it's here....u can't even pay the bills online...but when it's gone...ahhha..ample time for social networking.

Oh well.. I foresee ...after raya..it will be huricane..andrew, jane, folly..attacking me. So before it's here..i'll benefit this time given to update on what needs to be updated.

i am also counting days to hubby going to Mecca this Haj season...sob.the time has arrived..again...i just can't imagine my life and kids without him for 2 months....hmmmm....

Negaraku….apai’s version

Apai enjoys going to school now. But there are times..especially during the weekend,when his papa talks about school..all of a suddden he’ll say " Apai demam.." DDuuhhh..lame excuse la sayang…mama dulu dah pernah buat dah macam tu…heheheh.
On the 17th will be his Sports Day. As told by Teacher Ina, diorang tgh bertungkus lumus practice march past and nyanyi lagu negaraku. hehehe Ican’t imagine these kids marching and then sing the national anthem. Lately apai practices his negaraku at home. but of course his negaraku tak patriotik langsung..with lyrics all over the place. Here goes his negaraku…
"nedaraku ( negaraku)..tanah tumpahnya daraku,
rakyat hidup bersatu dan maju..
rahmat bahgia..Tuhan pergi kedai…(this is so bad!!)
rajak kita (taula papa orang perlis tapi org perlis pun tak sebut raja as rajak) selamat betahta…
Adeh….i think i’ve firmed up my abdomen due to laughing so hard whenever i listen to Apai’s version of negaraku. =)

Stress Makcik!!!!

It has been almost 2 months since Apai started his Smart Reader "Adventure". Since late January I’ve taken over my McDreamy’s task of sending Apai to school.And since then..I’m also early to work..
So today….I am in a very very very baaad mood probably due to hormonal imbalance…hmm almost end of the month now. Usually when i reach the office I can still smile to everyone i meet till i reach my 5 star luxurious cubicle. But not today..today i have the "I’m not talking to anyone" so please don’t look at me…kinda face…
Reason being :
At mom’s house…
"Apai come makan quaker oat"
"Nope..nak bibik suap"…ok that initiated the switch of the steamer to be on standby mode.
"Come here sayang mama dah buat ni..come mama suap"…yeahhh…you know i’m trying to be The momma mithali.
"Apai nak poop"
"ok..i’m going to suap adik first"
"Apai..dah ke belum?..come mama suap..we’re gonna be late"
"Mama..I don’t want the susu , I want the oat-oat (quacker oat) only"
I ..the momma mithali gave my anak soleh a very evil look.
What was that?.eavting quacker oat without susu?Man…the switch of the steamer was already on "ready to let out steam" mode.
I ignored his request and continued my act of trying to feed him with the quacker oats+susu.
"hmm nak bibik suap"
WARNING…the steamer is about to explode…please call 911.
"Ok fine you are walking to school today..I’m going to office NOW"
"Ok..fine lah….bibik….nak bibik suap"
So he prefers bibik than his own mother?? wuaaaaaaa huhuhuhu
?????????
In the car….SILENCE…
A few hundred metres reaching Smart Reader..
"Apai ..take a look in your bag…bekal ada tak"
" Ada mama" (in a very decent sweet little voice)
Silence….
"I’m dropping u at kakak dekat depan gate today" ( APAI hates this..he wants me to send him right to the door of his class because he would show me the King house..the playground..the turtle and blah blah blah which i’ve been looking at every morning without fail)
"Ok" he said softly..and i know he’s already sad.
" You know why? because i’m very angry at u right now because u didn’t want to listen to what i say"
Silence of the lamb again…
But please remember that I love you more whenever i get angry…(well… i didn’t say that outloud specially during this disciplinary session)
When we reached his school, i opened the car door…Apai came out and walk ahead of me..i know he’s angry at me too for being angry at him.
"Good morning Azfar..come sayang kakak hantar" said the kakak at the gate.
Apai didn’t smile or even go to her…he just walked straight.
Merajuk kot.
As a mother i tak sampai hati to leave him without saying goodbye.
I called him..
"Apai…come here"
He turned back and ran to me and hugged me.
After salam..i kissed him and hugged him.
"bye baby…love you..don’t make mama angry again ok…?"
He nodded.I let him go…but he kept looking back…and i saw little drops of tears on his cheek.
I waved..turned and drove away.
I love you Apai….
Huhh…stresss makcik!!

Hijra

As you get older, your problems get fatter. Your food preference might differ, your liking for certain things might also change. As for myself, I noticed that most of the food or drinks that i dislike during my cute younger days became my favourites now. I used to hate nescafe but now i can’t live without it. And there are also things that you couldn’t care less about before..but now your eyes have opened for it.
During the good old days..I never care about Maal-Hijrah..all i know and excited about is New Year..yeah..all the celebration..fireworks..concerts here and there and most importantly is the public holiday. But now..after being a mother of 2, I’m slowly getting into the waves of Maal-Hijrah.
I’m also slowly trying to understand the actual meaning of Hijrah. Well without noticing it..i think most of us have "berhijrah" to a certain point in life.
Yeah..i think I’ve done this hijra…hmm let me see..
Yeap…few years back…I covered my hair..that’s a hijra..
then..few ups and downs in love life…and life has got to go on…that’s a hijra…
When i met my destiny..the person whom i want to spend the rest of my life with…and made the biggest move in my life…yes that a hijra..from being "me" to "us".
And i believe that there’s a blessing in every hijra made.
And probably you won’t notice that a decicion/ action that you have to make..be it bitter, sour or even sweet is a hijra…and probably not instantly that you will feel the blessing God will give for the move you make. It might be a few years down the lane…or even it might not come to you ..perhaps..to your spouse/children..grandchildren..and etc…
I hope to be a better wife..mommy..sister..daughter..daughter -in-law and a good muslimah.

Apai goes to school-Part 1

Pheww how fast time flies…my son will be five next year and in just a couople of days he’ll be entering school. Gulp…I’m so nervous…hehehe dunno why.
Ok..eventually i wanted to send him to Villamaria Kindergarten which is located very near to my mom’s house. Considering:
1. Bibik can send him in the morning should Mr Darcy and I have meetings in the morning;
2. Bibik can pick up after school since it’s just walking distance from nenek’s house..so i don’t have to rush from office to pick him up.
3. It’s a turun temurun school….Nong-nong(stands for mama long but since apai cannot pronounce it properly when he was 1+…it became Nong-nong), uncle Joe, aunty yayang, maksu and aqid (beloved cousin bro) went to Villamaria…eerr except for me…i went to a french then indian kindy at Hanoi). So since it’s a turun temurun school…it’s like a must for Apai to enrol himslef to this kindergarten.
But…me, myself and I have another option which is Smart Reader but its located further than my mom’s house ( not a walking distance obviously)but in the vicinity of D-heights. I wanted to send him there because:
1. I was one of the evaluaters for an award and i evaluated Smart Reader…I find it very interesting because they create their own module,workbooks and etc;
2.I read testimonials on kids who were sent there can read an write well;
3.Oh well..overall i was just impressed with the whole concept..hey..as a mother of course i want the best for my kids.
I received so many feedbacks from my family..well of course majority wanted Apai to go to Villamaria.So after sessions of discussions with mr. Darcy…I decided to ….ok…lah follow lah the turun temurun thing.
So on one of the weekends, i made the announcement.
To to my surprise,
" i think Smart Reader is ok..you can try and send him there..for a change", Ayah said
"hmm..ok i’ll think about it again", i said .
Right..i didn’t take much time to decide….Smart Reader….here comes Apai….hehehe I’m so excited about it.
But many people were frustrated with my decicion…heheh even my bro-in law..said
" i couldn’t believe it she’s not sending Apai to Villamaria..its like a family school".
Yikes..sorry bro…made up my mind..just for a change..hehehe…hey when come to think of it…betul what..I’m the only one who didn’t go too villamaria..so…shouldn’t it be a turun temurun too?
Ok…so i decided to take Apai to see both schools before i register.
First stop…Smart Reader Strawberry Hills.
When i brought Apai there..they were doing some renovation works..so…the condition is a bit not condisive with dusts all over.I was really dissapointed with Apai’s comments.
" eee YUCK!!! I don’t like this place, I don’t want to go to school"
Second stop..Villamaria Kindergarten
And his comment was…
" I like this school Mama…so much fun!!!"
It took me…another week to really decide which school he goes to…and the decicion is final..and Apai is going to SMART READER.
Last week me and sis went to buy school stationaries…huhuhu..it used to be for myself now its for my son…errrkkk..so old now.
Anyways..i’m counting days to the first day of school..i dunno wat to expect..but i hope everything is going to be ok..and I’m so happy that my application for leave on the first week of jan has been approved! Hurraahh!!!

some sweet memories

I was sitting by the bed in the early morning after sahur. My darling boys were sleeping peacefully. Apai..as usual..has crossed the border between my bed and his…and amir…since the age of 2 mos ..has permanently bacame the great wall of china between me and Mr. Darcy.His crib became Apai’s deluxe toy box. He keeps his selected favourite toys, bedtime story books, golf balls and many more.
It felt like yesterday when I carried them in my huge belly. Apai was hyper in the tummy while Amir was such a good baby in the amniotic fluid but hehehe a bit aggresive now. I still remember those sleepless nites when they did their kick boxing, tai-ci and of course tae-kwan do.
Labour was sooooo painful. Pushing Amir was phewww…hard.Many big pushes..and i almost gave up. When he said hello to the world…i knew why it was so hard….he’s just 900gms less than 4 kgs!!
Confinement…i hate confinement. The most boring period in life. You can’t eat so many food…u can’t go out, u can’t sleep without socks,not to mention the unpaid overtime evry night for 44 days. The reward is puffed eyes and dark undereye circles..if you’re lucky…u’ll get eyebags tooo!!! Alhough i have to go through the sleepless nites..luckily i wasn’t alone..my dearest Mr. Darcy was always there taking turns to rock this 2 fellas. He’ll sing to them till they fell asleep again. Hmm selection of songs…from islamic to love songs to even lagu-lagu rakyat..e.g wau bulan , ala canggung…lol!!
But above all, i treasure those times eventhough i have to sacrify my beauty sleep. And no matter how much i wish to turn back the time…it will never come back…I’m getting older and the boys too!!
hehhehe all those memories made me laugh. Love u boys..( ok..make it 3 boys..how can i forget my Mr. Dacry?!!)..Love u boys so dearly.
I’ll always pray that I’ll live long enough to see u both grow and get the best in life. And I’ll always pray that both of u will always be in good health, jadi anak-anak yang solleh and sentiasa di bawah peliharaanNYA.
And my wish…my dear boys..is for both of you to remember your dear mama and papa everytime you perform your prayers.And pray for us when we are no more in this world…I could never ask for more…
Love you both…MMMUUAHHHS.

A Perfect Wife in the making

It’s a saturday and a fasting day in the holy month of Ramadhan. This Ramadhan’s resolution is to loose some weight. I can’t bear to look at those fat clinging on to my body and whenever i walk ..i feel them swaying from left to right . The beautiful part about this year’s Ramadhan is…i begin to develope the love for cooking. Hehhe I’m proud to say that since ramadhan started, I have not even step on the grounds of a Pasar Ramadhan. God…I’m so proud of myself (as usual).
Yep..i cook..i repeat..i cooked all the way. Be it kuih muih or the main dish.
So today..I asked Mr Darcy what he wants to eat and as usual..the common standard answer " hmm up to youlah…I tak kisah".
Pheww that really helps honey!
" mmm do you feel like eating kuih seri muka?",I asked.
Although I’ve never ever in my life make Seri Muka..
Oh my God i must be insane..I should have just told him to buy.
" ok..sounds good!"
Hearing that I jumped off my bed and walked slowly down the stairs heading towards the kitchen. Deep down in my heart i said to myself…wat a fool i am to have offered to make something that i’ve never done.
Picked up the phone and called my Recipe Helpline.
" Ma..what’s the recipe for Seri Muka?"
" Oh..u’re making it?..ok u need …bla bla bla", Mama said.
Wokey..Seri Muka..here I come….
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I lifted the "tudung" steamer…and …Oh Man…loads and loads of steam attacked my face…huh..that reminds me…when was the last time i pampered my face with facial treatment?…hmmmm oh yeah….i did it when i wasn’t even pregnant with my second child…Gee…are all moms like me? Putting so much effort to ensure that my "3 loyal customers" are satisfied with my service and because of that i neglected my own aging skin?!!!
Okie dokes..I’ve put in the top layer of the seri muka…closed the lid and waited patiently for the end result.I left the steamer with my specimen in it and went upstairs to perform prayers. After praying i saw my chubby baby sitting on my bed with the "bathe me now mama" look.
After putting on amir’s clothes…eeeekk..i remembered my green specimen in the steamer. I ran down to the kitchen and found the steamer steaming with no water in it!!!. I quikly poured in a big bowl of water and continued steaming. hmmm it’s a sign…a bad sign..
6.45pm…almost buka time. I lifted the lid of the steamer. Well..it looks…errr ok to me. I hope it tastes ok too.
Finally ..it’s buka time….woohooo!.
After the main course..which was..meehoon sup utara…i presented to my Mr Darcy…ze Seri Muka i made. Carefully he took a bite of it….i just stared at him. Then another bite…still nothing came out of his mouth. And followed by another bite…
" Hmmmm I like it..macam Mak selalu buat"
Huh???I stared at him again but this time with my mouth and eyes wide open. Did he just say…it tastes like his mom’s? Oh my GOD!!! I was so happy, excited and speechless…and i felt as though i’m gonna faint when i heard his comment…
Hehehhee…yippeee!!! Thank you Dah-ling for the comment.
So that motivated me to keep on rocking the kitchen. My confidence has increased..i’m looking forward for tommorow, the day after tommorow and the day after the day after tommorow’s buka puasa.Let’s see maybe i’ll try buah gula melaka..tepung talam..kuih ketayap …puding karamel…=)

Pasar Tani vs OU

Last week i took 2 days off from work…WoW!! it feels like heaven!!The last time i took leave was end of April. The objective of taking the 2 days off was simply because i wanted to spend time with my Azfar Nazrin a.k.a Apai. I felt that i’ve paid less attention to him since my chubby danial came.
Since it was thursday and it happens to be a pasar tani day at SS 14 PJ, me, myself and i have not been to this pasar tani since i started working and dats about 3 years back.
So i told Apai that both of us are going to watch Rattatoille(did i spell it rite?) at OU. But before that I’m going to the pasar tani with Nenek and Maksu and he and amir will have to stay at nenek’s as usual.
Suddenly..he started crying…and then came the turbulence. Yep..
very loud scream of " I wanna follow".
I said " No..I’m going just for a short while and it’s not a place for kids and when i come back..we’ll go straight to OU"
" I WANT TO FOLLOW!!!" he screamed again.
By then..I can see hot steam coming out from my ears….
" hmm ok if u wanna follow me now…there’s no OU..it’s either the Pasar Tani or OU…deal?"
Apai finally nodded…okie dokes..no need to let out more steam…he’s finally obliging. Good Boy…Dat’s my Boy.!!
"I want to follow u to pasar" he said slowly with his shoulders shaking as a result of extreme crying.
"huh?"
"ok fine no OU..no movies or watever" i said firmly.
And to my surprise..he agreed!!!
I stared at him and for i solid minute i was thinking to myself…how could a 4 year old child prefer to go to pasar tani than OU..ONE UTAMA???
And for another 30 seconds i was telling myself… "Anak sapa lah ni".
Finally he followed me to pasar tani…and later we went to OU to watch Ratt-ta-to-ee, go to the bookstore and ate Berber King ( as pronounced by Apai).
Well…we had fun..just the two of us..and i’m satisfied that i finally got the time to spend with him..just da two of us.
Hopefully we can get Mr Darcy to apply for leave before Ramadhan and we can all go for movies again…..=)

Nigella Lawson Wannabe…

Sunday morning…its here again…lying on the bed..looking at the ceiling….hmmm what do i cook today? breakfast, lunch and dinner.
" Ma..can we have breakfast now"
" hmm 5 mins k"
Ok that’s it..my mind just couldn’t think of what to cook. It’s bath time boys…bathing my baby needs extra care particularly the shampooing part …I have to make sure not even a tiny drop of water gets into his ears.(since he’s had 3 attacks of ear infections) Slowly i let the water run pas his ears..until no traces of shampoo is left.
Checklist no.1…bathe the boys…checked.
No.2…Fix a healthy breakfast.(now that’s a problem)
No.3..Lunch (no rice)
No.4..Dinner ( make sure its served before 7.00pm)
I was scanning the kitchen cabinet for food in the kitchen while my brain is working hard for a simple breakfast recipe i can cook for the 3 of us.
"Ahhah..got it.." Well.not a recipe actually.. I think i’ll settle for my usual teh tarik and hmm lets see maybe tosei or tosei telur at the nearest Mamak.
I ran upstairs to tell my Mr.Darcy of the brilliant idea i have for breakfast.
After closing a deal with Apai…(deal : stay home with bibik while mama and papa go out for a little while and of course mama will buy you chocolates and sweets.In the meantime enjoy your breakfast which is a bowl of yummy delicious cereal)
There..everything well planned…off we go to the Mamak’s for breakfast.Phewww..quite a relief.at least there’s some quiet quality moments for both of us.
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After a glass of teh tarik and a plate of Tosei Telur…i felt energetic..lying on the sofa I flipped the pages of the newspapers..urrgh boring stuffs except for the gossips on artists..who’s going out with who..this singer is doing this and bla bla bla.
Time flies so fast on Sundays…it’s already 2.00 pm?!! Walked straight to the kitchen..boiled some potatoes and in another pot i poured half a packet of macaroni into the boiling water.There..i’ll just leave it for 30 minutes.
Potatoes looked good….the macaronies cooked well. i took out the chopping board and started to chop the onions..chop chop chop…and suddenly i was in a different kitchen..chooping the onions…talking to the camera on tips to chop the onions…then i took out my fav pan..and saute the onions.Hmmm smells good!!( ..eeerr was actually fantasizing being Nigella Lawson on Dicovery Travel and Living Channel)
Threw in minced beef, tomato sauce, some seasoning, salt, pepper freshly mashed tomatoes… and let it simmer for a few a couple of minutes …mmm…smells good!( ..I’m so excited about baking a caserole..umm yummy…this is my first attempt to bake a caserole…and i’m already imagining my Mr Darcy praising me…."You are such a Good Cook..!!!Didn’t know i married a good cook!!")
Heheh I’m already smiling while i carefully cover the top layer of my caserole with slices of cheddar cheese…WHAT??!! Sliced cheddar cheese??? Nigella Lawson is gonna kill me…nobody uses sliced cheddar cheese in their caseroles..Aren’t you suppose to use the big chunk of cheddar cheese and grate them??..Well, i don’t have a recipe…i put in whatever i thot would be nice…Nigella cooks without refering to a recipe anyway!..Ok take it easy. Everything’s gonna be just fine…Mr. Darcy is gonna be so proud of me…..
Right..there goes the caserole dish in the oven. 180 degrees…30 minutes will do…
Krriinggg..krrriiingggg…Yay!! my caserole is ready…..took out the dish and took my first breath of the delicious looking caserole.( actually there’s a little burnt looking cheese here and there…)
Table is set..i laid down the caserole on the dining table..and called Apai and my Mr.Darcy for….hmmm i should say..tealunch.Oh GOD I’m so excited…to present the first baked dish i made after 5 years of marriage…=).
After Apai reciting the doa makan, Mr Darcy just stared at the Caserole…"Go..on..try it..It’s GOOD!" I said.
"Alamak..is it cheese?" asked Mr. Darcy.
I saw him frowning. Oh! Bugger..bugger I forgot my Mr. Darcy doesn’t really eat cheese!!??. So i married this kampung guy..half of his life grew up in KL, and spent a few years in West Palm Beach, Florida and sad to say he doesn’t like CHEESE.
" just try..it’s not like the usual cheese taste..it’s..really really good", great..i’ve used up my energy to cook this wonderful dish and wasted my time pretending to be Nigella lawson ..only to see he ate a small portion of it.
I waited for any praisals from him…nope..none.Suddenly..
"Mmmm so good Mama..can you make more?!!!",said Apai.
"Ok."..there goes my fantasy of getting praised by Mr. Darcy after all the hard work i’ve done.
There goes my weekend…as a part time domestic goddess and a full time supermom…i failed to reach the KPI for the weekend which is:
1. Cook 3 healthy meals.
2. Make Amir’s baby food for the week.( I did..but enough for 2.5 days)
It’s ok..Chill…looks like i better make Laksa next weekend rather than baking another caserole.:P