Stress Makcik!!!!

It has been almost 2 months since Apai started his Smart Reader "Adventure". Since late January I’ve taken over my McDreamy’s task of sending Apai to school.And since then..I’m also early to work..
So today….I am in a very very very baaad mood probably due to hormonal imbalance…hmm almost end of the month now. Usually when i reach the office I can still smile to everyone i meet till i reach my 5 star luxurious cubicle. But not today..today i have the "I’m not talking to anyone" so please don’t look at me…kinda face…
Reason being :
At mom’s house…
"Apai come makan quaker oat"
"Nope..nak bibik suap"…ok that initiated the switch of the steamer to be on standby mode.
"Come here sayang mama dah buat ni..come mama suap"…yeahhh…you know i’m trying to be The momma mithali.
"Apai nak poop"
"ok..i’m going to suap adik first"
"Apai..dah ke belum?..come mama suap..we’re gonna be late"
"Mama..I don’t want the susu , I want the oat-oat (quacker oat) only"
I ..the momma mithali gave my anak soleh a very evil look.
What was that?.eavting quacker oat without susu?Man…the switch of the steamer was already on "ready to let out steam" mode.
I ignored his request and continued my act of trying to feed him with the quacker oats+susu.
"hmm nak bibik suap"
WARNING…the steamer is about to explode…please call 911.
"Ok fine you are walking to school today..I’m going to office NOW"
"Ok..fine lah….bibik….nak bibik suap"
So he prefers bibik than his own mother?? wuaaaaaaa huhuhuhu
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In the car….SILENCE…
A few hundred metres reaching Smart Reader..
"Apai ..take a look in your bag…bekal ada tak"
" Ada mama" (in a very decent sweet little voice)
Silence….
"I’m dropping u at kakak dekat depan gate today" ( APAI hates this..he wants me to send him right to the door of his class because he would show me the King house..the playground..the turtle and blah blah blah which i’ve been looking at every morning without fail)
"Ok" he said softly..and i know he’s already sad.
" You know why? because i’m very angry at u right now because u didn’t want to listen to what i say"
Silence of the lamb again…
But please remember that I love you more whenever i get angry…(well… i didn’t say that outloud specially during this disciplinary session)
When we reached his school, i opened the car door…Apai came out and walk ahead of me..i know he’s angry at me too for being angry at him.
"Good morning Azfar..come sayang kakak hantar" said the kakak at the gate.
Apai didn’t smile or even go to her…he just walked straight.
Merajuk kot.
As a mother i tak sampai hati to leave him without saying goodbye.
I called him..
"Apai…come here"
He turned back and ran to me and hugged me.
After salam..i kissed him and hugged him.
"bye baby…love you..don’t make mama angry again ok…?"
He nodded.I let him go…but he kept looking back…and i saw little drops of tears on his cheek.
I waved..turned and drove away.
I love you Apai….
Huhh…stresss makcik!!