Mama Jangan Cry Ok?

Another 12 more days to hubby leaving for Madinah. Since yesterday i've been so emo. Bertambahlah emo-nyer when i watched the filem Ayat-ayat Cinta. I'm not a fan of Indonesian filems but this one really touched my heart. I think I'm gonna get the DVD so that i can watch it over and over again.


It was last nite that i cried when the thought of hubby going really soon. The last 2 haj season wasn't that bad because he went only for 2 weeks. But this time..it's the second time that he's leaving for almost 3 months. The first time he left was the year we got married. And to be exact..I was 6months pregnant. I couldn't explain how miserable it was without looking at his face every day ..and had some sleepless nites for 3 months. Those nites when i had cramps....and nites when i coughed so badly that i couldn't sleep at all. Those were the times when i needed him the most. To rub my back..and my legs when i had cramps. I wish i don't have to go through it again.


Just after solat Magrib just now...i tried to imagine my nights and weekends without him....Oh no...what am I gonna do?


Seconds later Apai came in. He looked at me...and then he started to imagine himself in the world of Upin & Ipin.





I held his hand. I told him that I'm really sad because papa is leaving.....then i started crying.



" Mama, nape mama cry?"



" Mama sedih sgt..nantikan papa nak pergi...Apai tak sedih ke?"



"Tak lah...mana boleh..boy mesti keras-keras... tak boleh cry"



"hmm ok ...good boy".



I told him how sad I was when his papa went for the first time and during that time he was still in my tummy.



I cried again....



" Mama...jgn cry ok....bila papa pergi nanti...malam-malam nak tido..mama pegang tangan apai kuat-kuat...Apai kan ada."



"ok..."



Thank you sayang..i know i can always count on you ..although lately I'm stressed due to your unpredictable attitude.



Even right now..when I'm typing this, he's right beside me...talking non- stop about Upin& Ipin, about his friend Akmal, questioning me why we didn't go to Aunty Pooh's house to see her baby..because he wants duit raya...



Thank you for being my little sunshine.....=)