I'm sorry........

Yesterday I attended a Seminar at PJ Hilton. I left the hotel at about 3.30pm. I decided not to lepak lama2 at mama's house because I need to practice for my presentation at my old office tommorow( Am already having butterflies in the stomach).

We reached home at about 5 pm. Helped Apai with his Mandarin homework..or he prefers to call and spell as chinis. But of course ada je alasan tak nak habis kan the last page....some of his common reasons:

1. Teacher kata buat satu page jer mama..(yelah tu..)
2. Penatla mama..Apai tak Larat ni...and
3. Mama ..I want to do at nenek house tommorow morning.

To make things uncomplicated..I just follow like buffalo..sebab malas nak naik hangin...janji kerja siap. I believe..if he doesn't have the interest to do it at that point of time...the quality of work pun will be unsatisfactory.oklah sayang..nak buat kat rumah nenek pun buatlah..mama tak kisah.

After that, i decided to drink my cuppa coffee at our mini garden. Hujan pun renyai renyai..masa ni lah tersanggap sekejap kat hubby....tgh sanggap sanggap tetiba..my not so little sunshine yang malas nak buat homework tadi pun keluar. He started to pok pek pok pek..mama.this mama that... and i just answered mmhmmm..yea..ya..yes..ooh..oh yeke...oh ok...
(What a bad mommy!!!) Yelah..tgh melayan perasan..so agak malas nak melayan dia cakap.

He made a statement " Mama..u miss ur husband ye?"

Finally I said, " Lepas ni mandi ok?"

"Ok..Mama kita mandi berdua k, papa tak de so we can kissing kissng?" he said

I made a face..

"EEEEE tak nak lah..."

"Mama..why boys..cannot kiss gurls?"

" Because...they are not married yet" I said selamba.

" Ok then i want to marry zahira..( his classmate yang jugak comel...=)"

I asked" She likes u aaa?"

" Oh..tak nak lah... I want to marry Hani"

"Why?"

"Because Hani is my gangstarz"

HHHuhh? Dia ni tau ke apa dia cakap ni?

" Gangstarz?? What song do u sing?"
" Oh.. We sing...I love u u love me..we are happy family..lalallalalla( Barney song)

LOL!!! ntah pape ntah anak aku ni.

Later that nite... i was doing my toning exercise in the bathroom. Of course i had 2 little audience watching me. Then one of the audience came and wanted to take my wrist weight away.

"NNNNOPE..go back to the bed" I said sternly.

So ..this audience pun merajuk and baring on his papa's portion of the bed.

When I'm done...as i was wiping the sweats of my body...I told him..

"Apai..go and wee wee before u sleep k..tadi dah minum banyak air"

I think i said that very nicely for umpteenth time. But no response..
Aduhh..sungguh the terkurang the ajar!!!

I guess the temperature has reached to its maximum.. i raised my voice... and tak dengar jugak...and suddenly.....automatically for the first time in my life....i..took the towel and pukul his kaki...(tak skait pun..but later i think it got a little bit harder when he still make dunno.

Knowing my son.. he's very egoistic...tak nangis tak apa..expressionless.

When I cooled down...we had a talk...a looong talk... on why i did that and why he shouldn't do that again... we both started to cry.... He said sorry to me... and i hugged him and i apologised to him for doing that.,

Mama mintak maaf sayang...I din't mean to hurt you but i was stressed.

I'm sorrry...dear.... I love you....always and forever.

When everything got back to normal....we watched Penelope...but halfway thru..they dozed off. And I continued with watching Samantha Who...

HMMMmmm it is not easy to be a parent...I always pray that i will be a good mother to my kids..because the kids are a reflection of us.....

Ok chow for now.... Wish me luck for my presentation tommorow!!.